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 This is what they said in 2002 . . .
hi i have been going in and out of depresion for a year now it all started when my friends started taking the piss of me for being fat well so called friend so did my parents and am not even that fat making stuff up bout me like telling school i was on drugs when i've never tuched the stuff i would like it if sum 1 emailed me with advise soon asp please
I'm trying to get better Dave. It's just hard to go through life without having the thought of suicide or the thought of cutting in my mind. I know there are people that care about me, I guess I'm just scared of losing those people, just like before. I'm scared of life... I'm scared of happiness.
Amber, don't give up on life. There are people who really do care about you and there are those who will try to hurt you. Try to learn who is who. Hugs to you.
yet i can not say "wohoo for God"... lost faith about 4-5 years ago. pretty much lost faith in life and everything in it when my dad had his affair. now when people are all like "lets praise Jesus he's so caring and loving" i feel my stomach tighten, and i despise the "yay for God thing" its not like i'm a satanist or something. i'm still an overall good person. i'm just not all religios anymore. i'm spiritual yes, but not religious. i had this guy come into work and he was like "i know soemthing about you...Jesus loves you." i just kinda gave him a blank stare and told him that i lost faith. i've tried to get it back, its just not working. so i kinda just decided that i'm gonna go on my way about life and maybe it will come back to me instead of me giong back to it.
Lou, I agree and know that my God is powerful and that he casts out demons and is always there even though some don't believe this. The Holy Bible is by far the BEST BOOK ON EARTH!! I would be dead if the Lord wasn't in my life. I would have thrown myself in front of a train long ago or over dosed on meds. My God is a loving and caring God and he forgives us all. All that we have to do is ask for his forgiveness. Take care to all!! God Bless everyone including myself that are hurting. Kimberly
Hello to all! I came across this website and don't even know how I got to it. I don't know if I have bipolar disorder or not. I know that I am so depressed that I can't stand it and it is affecting my marriage and my 2 little childrens' lives. I don't know what to do. All of the doctors around here are quacks and don't know what is wrong with me. They all say depression. When I was younger at the age of 14 I am 27 now they said that I had major depression,post traumatic stress disorder,anxiety and panic disorder,insomnia,and I think that is it. I have tried the following meds and none of them worked or caused side effects: Wellbutrin,Prozac,Zoloft,Paxil,Tegretol,Pamelor,Trazadone, Depakote, Celexa and a few that I can't remember. I don't know what to do. My doctor has me now on Lexapro which is made by Forest Labs which is the same people that make Celexa. It is new and I refuse to take it. Even the Pharmacy doesn't know anything about it. Does anyone have any suggestions. I was on Xanax for 10 years for my anxiety attacks and now my Doctor took me off of it cold turkey and said that I don't need that stuff anymore. Who in the hell is he to say what I need and don't need. I have panic attacks so bad that I hyperventilate and can't breathe. I don't experience mania. I have roller coaster feeling and emotions. My father died recently and I am having a hard time dealing with that. In may I was on vacation in Cancun, Mexico and was almost drowned in the ocean and was brutally raped. This has brought back a lot of horrible flashbacks and nightmares from the past when I was a little girl and an adolescent. There is a loving God out there and I lean to him for strenghth. Can anyone help me as I feel hopeless and don't know what to do. Please help. Kimberly Lost In Northern Kentucky
u know...i can really relate to the poem by emily dickenson... the one "much madness to the dininest sense" i think she'x brilliant and and creatve.... i look to her as a guide... neways gtg...
I am in love with a man who has bipolar disorder. He lost his wife and children in a auto accident almost 2 years ago. After becoming emotionally and mentally close to him, he decided that it was best we never spoke again. I'm in love with him and only want him to see that his illness is something I can handle and that despite his fears, with my help we can work through this together, one day at a time. Suggestions on how to approach this are appreciated.
Dave~ i'm not really sure if i'm doing better or not. i get better but then it shoots right back down. i'm starting to work at mr. fuel...a gas station. i work 2nd shift ... and it pays 7 dollars an hour. hell... when i worked at mcdonalds i only got 5.25...and i never got a raise. and i get a 50 cent raise in 2 weeks. hope you feel better. *sends more hugs* ~*Amber*~
Amber, I hope you are doing better. I wish you didn't hurt so much.Thanks for the hugs, they truly help.
Lou, I really think this whole religion/god/bible thing is gettin blown way outta proportion in ur head, but who am i to say that right? I know you have ur oppinions and i believe everyone has the right for their own oppinions. The thing about oppinions though is that they can't be right or wrong, because they are someones oppinions, their thoughts just their guesses on how they see life. Now how can u prove someone wrong or right on that? Its what people believe...to me believing is like dreaming.. would you want to take away someones dreams? I know i wouldnt. But it all depends on the person you are. Yes i believe in heaven and hell and all that shit, but i dont let it live my life for me. I take my own life one day at a time, the way i want to do it. It's all your choice on how to live it, Not the demons from hell or whatever. Maybe I'm gettin your message totally wrong, but why should u research all ur oppinions? Why should u not speak out unless u know 100% U are right? I just dont get that. Maybe believin in all this has helped u get along in life, but is it really what u want? why must people contradict everything? Just go with the Flow i say. Anyways u dont need to listen to me because im probably just an ignorant teenager in ur eyes right? Well, that's okie with me, because I'm doing what i THINK i should do.. and what I THINK is right! anyway good luck with all of this!
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Lou, I do not know where you got your education, but it seems as if you never made it out of Catholic School! In my opinion that is about to follow, I am in no way, shape, or form doubting that religion is not an answer. I believer religion is beneficial for those who need guidance and inspiration, such as suicidal people in this case. However, I would not think it influenced some of the great scientific philosophers to the point that they believed themselves wrong? Darwin completely contradicts the bible with his theories. Mendelsohn did what? Studied plants and genealogy???? Where things were already predetermined to take a special course in life... The bible has been proven through archeology? What evidence do we have of Noah's Arc? Maybe there is a city or two that does exists that are mentioned in the bible, but the same goes for nursery rhymes, are they fact too???? I just read someone's opinion that he was also anxious to have others adopt concerning
what happens to a soul who commits suicide. This person stated that reincarnation was what happens. That would be perhaps preferable to
an eternal destiny in either heaven or hell, but unfortunately it is not an option. Lazy souls probably go to hell ahead of suicidal ones,
since lazy souls don't bother to research their opinions. I don't know about you, but when it comes to God and religion, I want one that
lines up with my everyday experience. One that is corroborated by science and history and practical observation.
The Bible has persuaded great minds like Einstein, Albright, Newton, Mendelsohn, and thousands more, that their own opinions were wrong and that
the Bible was right, even against their prefernces! History, archeology, geology all confirm the Bible's veracity.
Why doesn't everyone believe then? Because they don't like it when the parents tell them what to do and they don't
want a God of any kind telling them what to do. The problem is, if you disobey your parents, you have a lousy or no
relationship with them. They don't cease to exist. Disobey God and you have a lousy or no life. He doesn't go away-
but you will! Don't react with a ignorant knee-jerking...start exploring what I said at your local library or on the net.
What if there really is a devil and an army of demons dedicated to driving you crazy and then to hell? What if Jesus
really does cast out demons and gives you power over them? That would be cool, right?
it's something i've realized throughout my hell. i cried and was pained more when it dealt with someone i was close to. and the closer i was to them, the more i hurt. i wish i knew how to make it all stop. right now my main concern is my heart. not just emotionally, physically. there is something wrong with it. every day it feels like my heart fills up with helium, like its lifted, and then it would feel like a big marble goes through all of my heart. my ekg and my blood test were fine. i go to the doctors again tuesday to run more tests. the thing is, if no one finds anything wrong, then i have to live with it. and everyday it just keeps getting worse. i really cant motivate myself to do anything anymore. sometimes i cant even motivate myself to eat, even if i am hungry. i rarely do my homework, i dont want a job, and my room is a mess, has been for almost a month. i'm tired of how i am. but i dont know how to fix me.
You couldn't have said it better, Amber, I'm still hurting. You will get hurt more by the ones you love most, but they dont do it on purpose.
All this time, I thought I was a Libra.
Amber- you seem like you're one lucky lady!!!! I think you should live it up and enjoy the love the man upstairs has provided to you no matter what form or shape it takes.... Have a blessed day all, especially YOU jeremiah!!
things could be better dave. it sucks having 4 guys in love with me and i just want to be by myself. and i hate seeing them hurt. i have a long confusing future ahead of me and i don't think i am strong enough to handle it.
Meagan, Hang in there. You are just as normal as everyone else. My prayers are with you. Hi Amber, I guess I'm OK for now, nothing good but nothing that terrible either. Hope you are ok. :)
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Hi everyone. I wanna say... if u think depression is rough, imagine being bi-polar suffering from PTSD (from being molested by my cousin) and being a teenager. Teens are forced into so many molds and it makes me sad that im not "normal" and dont fit into these molds. i really wish there were someone out there who knew what i was going through, thats why i like reading these. please email me, i would really like to hear from someone goin through the same thing
Hello all... I think this sight gives an interesting perspective into the realm of mental disorders... TWO THUMBS UP!! d d
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Hello my bothers and sisters it has been a long time. Now at 23 years old, I find my self thinkin 99% of time. Its crazy, but I realized to every negativity there is a positivity. Its just how you look at it, for example as a child I find myself disagreeing with the attitude of my ordinary class mates. Since the strongest and meaniest mind always dominates, I found my self alone and Isolated. But heres the bonus, the conversations carried out in the dark depths of my mind were highly intellectual, so although I was the freak staring at walls and failing to appreciate outer beauty, I was also the child that while experiencing Major Depression was the mentor of the class and found ordinary children trying to adapt in order to interact with me. Soon I became an image that although was never involved, was most commonly talked about. As an adult I realised I shouldn't try to avoid who I am because theys to many Bipolar traps, like having a light conversation with a girl, then somehow with out knowing it going to deep for her poor little mind to follow. And finding my self thinkin, oops I did it again "lets talk about Jerry Springer" but no... by then its too late. But lucky for me I have a friend that understands or just isn't interested, I often forget which one. But hey thats fine cous since we spend at least five hours together he is constantly amazed at how I can go completely quiet in a club with everyone making conversation. He will say "whats goin on man why you so quiet, theys girls lets go and chat to them" then I'll say "give it a while we just got here, when the music changes" its a script that we've always followed but now he only pushes me so far and is begginning to understand something, but what something is unknown. also whilst depressed he also amazed at how fast I react to everything he says and the way I can memorize our conversations. The positivity this time... He is learning not to make mistakes, the negativity I known him for thirteen years but truly aren't feeling him. Its like he or I am not really there, and at any given time he may be left at the drop of a dime for a petty pointless reason. Its sad cous I am the centre of attention at dance clubs, basketball courts, gyms, dojo's, work places, But never truly apart of the reality in which they feel and see. Mine has no limits and no boundrys as long as the innocent are not provoked or physically and metally damaged in anyway, but society has rules. Like dating, like hustling, like lieing, like characters out of the simpsons. Lately I ask my self am I one, does a character fit me like it does my friends. who knows but luckily I was raised among entertainers and they push me to get out, I think alot of us are couped in our homes reading negativity or joining the cycle of surfers that feel the warmth of the net. But I feel its wrong I think since my phone was cut off and I lost acess to the internet, which although I loved was doing more harm than good, I've been pushed back into society and hell are say it lifes about people, forget the financial objects of beauty that man has brain washed us into believing are a main reason for existence, and get out there and socialize the word today is socializing and not with each other its pointless. What am I gonna do sit here and tell you what you already know but translated differently. Come on you you know we supposedly share the same pain so what more information is there for you to seek. It also saddens me to know how Jeremys book ends cous as I started something was given to me and as it ended something was taken away. But hey its a Bipolar world. Take care and arr don't get trapped in cycles, you should be free at all times. a little mania from the U.K to the rest of the world. PEACE
so far my meds aren't working. the only thing they are doing is giving me dry mouth and tremor. my therapist says i should try to forgive my dad for having an affair. yet not one piece in me can forgive him. not only to i not want to forgive him, i CANT forgive him. i guess alot of people just don't understand that. heh, such is life eh? so i broke up with my beloved boyfriend... i don't even know why now. all i know is that i just want to be by myself right now. and get my life straightened out. we've been apart for about 5 months or so. we still are friends, though we fight alot. the hard part for me right now is having 5 guys in love with me. scott, aaron, dan, andy, and andrew. and of course i don't know which one to pick becuase they all mean so much to me. and plus i don't want to be with anyone right now. they all know about eachother and they all know the whole situaiton. just a couple of days ago i broke down becuase of the whole situation. i hate hurting other people so much. and of course their hurt makes me hurt because i know they are hurting because of me. hopefully i get this whole thing figured out. Blessed be to all. Dave ~ *hugs* nope still haven't forgotten ya. Hope you are doing okay.
Wow! This is so nice to see that there are so many of us out there who struggle with life. Sometimes I feel so alone and crazy. I am 20 now and I have had cronic depression for 5 years. I have had PTSD for 4 years, I have been builimic and a drug addict (crystal and crank) for about the same amount of time. I have tried so much to pull myself together, but It is so hard. I've been to treatment twice and That helps for a while, but the pain just never goes away completely. About 6 months ago I started on meds. Right now I am taking wellbutrin, prozac, and topiramate. It is definently helping. I don't have anyone to talk to because I am trying to stay away from all my crack head friends. I then Isolate myself from meating new people who would be goog for me. I think that my true friends are also somewhat scared of who I am, and why I am the way I am. It just doesn't make scense to normal people who live normal lives. Don't get me wrong, we all have issues, but most of us have issues that can be fixed. Some of us have pain so sad that it can never be fixed. I guess we all share a common bond. Thanks for listening.
Hi. I have only just stumbled up on the site in one of the older guest books and had to look for the latest guestbook so I can sign it. I havent actually read his story yet but im basing this on what I have read from other facinating peoples posts. I am pretty sure I suffer from OCD, but only fairly recently. I almost know I was suffering from some sort of depression for a couple of years because of the constant downs and the imence paranoia. I am only 16 and I have been going out with my girlfriend (Rachel Claire Billington) for nearly 6 months. She suffers from clinical depression and has done for some time.She was only really diagnosed at the beginning of our relationship when her mom saw her wrists and took her to a docter. I allmost pushed aside all of my (soon to be diagnosed) depression to help her. I still am helping her as much as I can and I was even there every night she spent in hospital after taking an over dose. People seem to think that you can control it and they say things like "what were you thinking" The thing was she wasnt thinking any thing. after a concocsion of 30 tablets, most of the parecetamol, she suddenly thought of me and thats what stopped her from carrying on. It makes me feel so happy when I think that I stopped her death. Recently though all of my pushed aside feelings have built up and I really dont know what to do. Im just preying that she will stand beside me like I did with her.I just really scared that she wont.When we were talkin about how i feel I described the way she feels down to all the little bits like lack of concentration and the feeling that your just a watcher of society and not a part of it. I also described in detail the symptons of ocd (Obsissive Compulsive Disorder). I finally managed to get enough courage to book a docters apointment and will be going in a couple of weeks. I think it has all happend because For some reason I have been out casted at both primary and secondary schools although I am nice to every one. Even the bullies because I hate being nasty to people and hurting people. I have never been nasty to my previous and current girlfriends I just dont know why which doesnt make it any better. Last year I got a girlfriend called Polly, I thought "Finally some one who cares" so I got really attatched to her. She then just broke up with me and didnt tell me the reason. I thought I had done every thing for her. I acted as hapily as i could, I gave her flowers. I was always polite and nice around her family and friends and her self and I did every thing she wanted. I was later told by one of her friends that "She had every reason to dump me" and she had apparently gone on for hours why she did to this friend of hers. I was under the impression that no matter what I did I was still never any were good enough for her. After that I went out with some one else who I got very attatched to. She flirted with all my friends and lots of the time it just felt like she was gonna break up with me although I acted as perfect as I could for her and tried really hard. bought her flowers when ever I could aford them and she still she still flirted with all my friends and some times it felt like she was gonna break up with me. Im am so scared that rachel is gonna do the same and I think thats why I am so bad at the moment, because she is all I have and she is every thing to me. Sorry for giving you my life story but it makes me feel better when I poor it all out like that. sorry
hai sisyphus!! You can count on me!
hello out there- i have problems, sure we all have problems but mine are beginning to win. I've been clinically depressed for at least 6 years and only just now have i recognized it. after i read jeremy's story i really began to think about what is wrong with me? I have trouble sleeping, i hardly eat, i stay inside all day and i am afraid to talk to strangers I am trying to see a doctor but who knows? I just want to talk to someone, I dont even wanna know your real name, i just need someone to listen to me, to hold back the weight that so often crushes me.
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Hello!. This website is great. Now i can know how people with manic-depressive feels and thinks. For JEremy and the others, i hope you can figure out all your problems. I mean it!!!!I know it's not easy to do that but at least we try!.
that's okay dave. i still luvz yaz =)
I am so sorry Amber, my comments were directed to you. I talked with Heather a long time ago. SO SORRY.
Thank you Heather for the inspirational words you have given me. They have given me hope. What do I need to do to stop feeling so down all the time. What meds will help me? I really hate the person I have become.Sorry I'm putting the pressure on you, but you're all I have for now. My wife wants to stay married for the kids, but has told me she doesn't love me anymore. I just don't know what to do. This was all my fault, although nothing ever happened, I betrayed my wife and I feel terrible. Every night I seach the Web for information about how i feel and I just can't pinpoint it. But anyways, thank you for your support, I'll never forget it.
hola! mi llama es amber. tu? yeah just know a lil spanish. but yeah... so i just saw one of my doctors today. he is updosing my celexa to 40 mg and i'm also going to take 100 mg of wellbuitrin...this seems like its gonna be fun.
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The words of wisdom.... we shall all be in peace.. bless you all, especially those behind all this
DEAR PEOPLE! this is for anybody who has ever felt depressed! this includes all of you. i want to STRONGLY recomend to you a book. it's called "conversations with the other side" and it's by sylvia browne. the author is a psychic and is connected with the after life. the book describes, among other things, heaven. it's a place more blissful than we dare to dream! it's a place where we feel happier than we've ever felt on earth, and we feel this way all the time for all eternity! it's a place where everybody is in perfect love and harmony with each other; there is no adversity; a stranger is treated with complete openess and acceptance. it's perfect. i especially recomend this book for all those who've ever felt suicidal. do you know what (she says) happens to people who kill themself? their soul isn't condemned to hell for all eternity, that's just ridiculous. what happens is you have to reincarnate back to earth into a life that's virtualy identical to the one your living now. you'll look almost exactly the same, will have the same parents, the same friends (or lack of friends), the same traumas, the same depression...do you really want to go through your entire life, all over agian from the begining? i know i sure as hell don't. this book has changed my life. i now feel like, NO MATTER HOW BAD LIFE GETS, i'll be able to handle it. and that's an understatement! i really do feel amazing, and i want to share this feeling with all you lovely people. this book will give you the strength you need to survive the ordeal that is life. i promise you. it may also interest you to know that none of us are going to hell, because there is no such thing...unless you count earth.
Dave~ i don't see how YOU ruined your marriage. if you are trying to make things better, that's all you can do. live through it, and learn... though it's hard as hell and a pain in the ass. you seem like you are a warm hearted, fun, and loving guy. i don't see how anyone could think negatively about you.... and i am telling the truth. Somehow things get better, even when it doesn't seem like the hell is going to go away. much peace, light, love, and happiness to you.
Amber, Thank you for those beautiful words of encouragement. I really needed them. My whole life seems to be in a tailspin. My job of 20 years has starting treating me terribly, my wife and I have constant fights. I feel the weight of the world on my shoulders. I realize a lot of people have it a lot worse than me. I really feel for others, i just don't care about myself. I'm letting go. What a fool I was to ruin my marriage. KEEP THINKING OF ME. It's nice to know that someone thinks i'm worth something. Thanks again.
Dave ~ i know what you mean by not knowing if "today is the day" or not. different situations and different events will make you either think that today is the day or that it is not. though i dont know everything that you are going through, just think.... it can always be worse than it already is you know? i know it kinda sounds like crap, but i have come to realize that it is the truth. either we develop and adapt to other's worlds, or make our own in their worlds. I understand having children you are limited to things, and alot of the time your children are alot more observant on how and what you do. have you ever tried sitting down and talking to them? just as a parent? there are so many things and different ways you can deal and cope, though it's not easy alot of the times. but at least always try something eh? much peace, light, love, and happiness to you all.
HI Amber, I'm still here. Things are not going good for me either. I am just wondering what determines that "Today is the Day". I've been feeling this for too long and sometimes I wonder if today is the day. My kids always make me realize what a stupid choice i would be making, but lately that hasn't been enough. Today for the first time in a long time I was ready and it scared me. So, How do you know that today is the day or not?
*sigh* i havent posted in ages. but i'm still here. trying to get my life straightened out... not working that well but at least i am trying right? i hope things are better for everyone else. ~dave~ hope you are ok... still havent forgotten about you =) blessed be.
I think this site is wonderful! Edmund speaks of marketing, well it is a pleasure to be on a site that for once is not littered with banner ads. Plus, this site is for a good cause. Go Jeremy and friends!!
My name is Edmund Marco and it's a pleasure to sign your guest book. I work for an advertising agency in London. Our agency represents direct marketing companies that are involved in the marketing of products as seen on TV in England. Most of the infomercial products come from the U.S. but then again we export our talents as well. My brother has appeared in infomercials in the U.S. advertising various products. I think it's hilarious that English people respond so well to American products while Americans tend to respond well to sales people who have an English accent! none.
It's about time . . .
WOW, Great site!!! I was flipping through Psychology Today and ran across an article on this website, so i decided to check it out. I am very pleased with what you have all done. It is great to see people explaining this illness how it really is from a patient and friends' perspective.
My name is also Jeremy. I was actually combing the internet for a pdf download of the "NIMH Life Chart Method." I was diag. bipolar type I in June of 1999. I've been hospitalized a number of times, after/during suicide attempts. My life is a trainwreck, and I've basically destroyed any relationship I ever had, that was worth something. "Psychosis" has about as uniform a meaning as the word "love" does. It's always our actions that mean the most, whether encouraging and hopeful or discouraging and dangerous. So, this site I happened on really strikes me, in all of the actions, here--Mr. Jacob's, as well as those of his friends and supporters. Manic depression is a caustic demon, and yet something that I can't imagine abandoning, if I could. I think I'm just trying to say Thank You for all of your efforts. Sang froid to and for us all.
My name is Jeremy Hobbs. I live in the UK and was diagnosed rapid cycling b.p.last year. I've always put my (obvious now) mania, depression and suicidal tendency down to reaction to life events, which have been pretty tragic at times. Now everything makes sense. I am a better father and husband knowing what I know now. I don't regret having it - it's helped make me what I am; the way I think, react etc. I only wish I'd known earlier so I could've taken medication and prevented some of the chaos. It's other people who have the problem with it - my family just want to rewrite the past. But when you've been depressed, self harming and suicidal it's not so easy to forget. I've read a lot of the site and recognise we all have different ways of trying to cope. I suppose there's no right or wrong, but support encouragement and understanding from those in the same or similar boat can leave you feeling less isolated if people around you can't understand. The irony of this being 'Jeremys story' has not been lost. I often had pain and no answers. I have some now and with it some hope.......
I just found this web site because I looked up a search for people who cut themselves. And this turned up. I just finished reading the journal entries and i must say they are very intense. I look forward to reading the book. You guys have made a really great site here. Thank You so much. BYE>
I think it is wonderful to finally find a site that allows one to freely express themselves about the troubles that they have encountered with this illness (manic-depression). I am also very impressed with the artwork people have submitted to the blog section. I can not express to the people behind this site enough for providing such an exceptional service to the public!! The book does a wonderful job in depicting the realness of this illness and how it effects friend and family. You should all be commended for your efforts and GO Jeremy! Amen.
I just found this site. I can't believe it. It's great! Thanks. YB
Thanks for the site and the book!
Cathrine... You seem to have a penchant for posting on many other guestbooks. What's your deal?
"Don't let the sound of your own wheels drive you crazy." The Eagles. My favorite quote.
Hi, My name is Catherine. I love the colors in your website.
In my opinion there is more to Bipolar Disorder than meets the eye. My cousin has this disease and he is the most brilliant man I know. Has anyone seen the movie, A Beautiful Mind?
I can't decide whether I am sick or is everybody else. One thing I know is that there are many people who have no idea what it's like to be metally sick, and if they did, they would have a lot more sympathy for people who have mental health difficulties. Sadly, many people just don't care until it affects them directly. Then there are those who are so scared that they avoid the mentally ill like the plague.
I am Halie. I lost my best friend/ my sister a lil ova a month ago. I am 15 and I don't know if I can handle this pain much longer. I don't know who to turn to because she was the only one I could talk to. My brother is about the only person I trust and that I know has been thro the same thing I am goin thro. He lost his best friend a year ago on da same day. I just don't know what to do. I am afraid I might need professional help.. I really hope not. If anyone can help me please e-mail me!
The following two posts you are about to read are in need of explination. I've been studying the mind and techniques to help people recover from mental illness for over ten years. The last five years has produced some of the most interesting information, including the Jeremy's Prophecies book, I just got that one yesterday. I wish I would have known this was taking place two years ago. I would have made only one post, but the format didn't transfer well and the first post was garbled. I hope this doesn't upset anyone. The listing techniqe is important. It is inspired from two diverse areas of study. The Kaballa offers a three fold world, or three dimensions concept that are known as the mind, quality of choices the mind makes or the gracefullness at wich the mind makes choices, and the tasks that the human accomplishes. The listing technique, with its three columns was inspired by a person suffering from mania, he was attempting to write, not in an orthodox linear fassion, but by beginning in the middle moving to the left and then to the right. I didn't understand why he did this or his reasonning behind it, but I read the Kaballa materials within six hours of reading about this person's writing technique, within six hours of my burnning up my car engine FOR THE SECOND TIME! The mind has a third survival response, I call it morphing. You have the known fight, fligh, and my not commonly known morphing response. The morphing respons is what you do to addapt to your environment. For those who don't wish to loose thier genius dimension, I recommend the trinity processing technique. The brilliant mind will function in greater harmony if this is adheared to.
That last post was copied from an e-mail I sent and didn't transfer well. I hope this makes the three column listing idea more understandable.
COLUMN A = Firtilize the mind, Read!, fruits of the mind, Write original thoughts, if you have any. COLUMN B = list choices you need to make. COLUMN C= Things to do, like a grocery list or house cleanning list.
Myth Healer
quest@inetarena.com
From the Myth Healer-
Life is complicated due to the large numbers of people, with each having their specific needs and interests. This beign the case, I'm not too impressed that someone came up with the ADD diagnosis. If you're unable to concentrate, your wearing mental blinders, or taking ADD meds :-)
I've overcome many problems, myself, and wish to offer some support to others. The following technique is a way to prevent yourself from neglecting various aspects of your life, if not attended to, may cause you to feel either depressed, or for your life to go into chaos. I designed the following list technique, after having had two automotive engines burn up-due to my neglecting to check the water level... *ouch*. I discovered that the reason for my problem, wasn't on account of my lazyness, stupidity, , Satan, Karma, Black Majicians or bad luck, but of my intense focus on the feeding of my mind, I wasn't reading automotive repair either... :-)
Make a three column list of the things you need to do each day, or week. Unlike a normal grocery list, having only one column, this list will have three columns. The column on the left will deal with mental mind, or writing activities only. The second column should contain decisions you need to make in the near future. This could be simple things like what movie to watch, what to have for dinner. The third column, on the far right, will list the things you need to do, much like what you would find in a normal grocery list. The nice thing about this list is that if you are stuck on a depressing issue, it keeps you busy, and keeps new input comming into your mind so that you don't obsess over any one thing for too long. You get things accomplished! and that makes you feel good about yourself!
Feed the mind Make choices Things to do (general)
1. look up word 'myth' 1. chose car to buy 1. Pick up check
2. search for myth 2. sellect the date 2. do home work
3. read my book 3. sellect the movie/time 3. feed the cat
You can do this list in the order you wish, the main point is that you are giving attention to the quality of mental information you have, the choices you make and the tasks you complete. Everything in life revolves around these three things. Without the attention given to either Mind feeding, making choices, and getting things done, you create dissfunction in your life as well as the lives of those around you. After the first go-round, you may feel so good about yourself that you will continue the process. It should create a state of ballance, and have a miraculus effect on your success in life.
You can't make good choices unless you are educated enough to do so. This type of listing prevents stagnation, or retardation of the mind. You don't want to be in a state of mental stagnation for too long, that can lead to depression and sleep loss, and onto more serious things. The mind effects the other areas of life, and the active list allows you to keep a log of the things that need attention. It is like the warnning lights on a car, if you don't have the heat sensor (like my car, the dang thing didn't work) you will blow up the engine and be out a few thousand bucks. That kind of expense, for some persons, can cause an out of control spirel of events, esspecially when the person is at the end of their rope, financially. This is a great idea for both those who have a bussy life and those who are depressed. It keeps all things being juggled in the bussy life from crashing to the ground, and prevents obsessive thoughts, such as depression from getting out of control. Although, I'm not implying that you should ignore your Dr.'s advice, in favor of this technique (I had to say that for leagel reasons, not that I support it).
Myth Healer
quest@inetarena.com
i am ok. its always up and down. i have taken a strong interest in music. im not talking this pop crap. im talking about the good stuff that makes you think. mostly what i listen to is punk because alot of it i can relate to. i am doing better than i was. i will keep in touch
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